complicated

i don 't know how to describe my feelings right now,
because i m really complicated like dumbfound at all ,
4days of holidays going to end ,
meantime i will be going back to college again,
going back to school,
going back to meet my friend,
going back to meet my sakai gang follower,
and going back to meet you,
i don 't know how should i face you when we meet,
i was look like lose one's way or eat some hallucinogen,
i think i really fall in love with you deeply,
i don't dare face to face to tell you my feelings to you ,
because i scare i will lose a friend like you after u heard it,
but
i know that u'd know already,
but would you give me a chance ?
i think you won't ,
i m going to give up ,
give up in giving up you,
i m trying to forget you ,
but it's impossible...
but i will hope you always be the one
who always happy
as a clam as sandboy
as the day is long !
please don't feel troublesome on me
because it's not deserve...k!